Tuesday, Oct. 17, 2006
Stop being so scared you pussy....
Dont you just hate it when you miss the past so much that you spend hours and hours reliving it in your memory? You think about all the little things that have happened to you in the past and you just wish you could go back there and live in that moment for the rest of your life? Dont you just hate that no matter how much you protest or how much you think about it, you can NEVER go back to that exact place in time?
I miss when we all used to be friends. I miss all the laughs and the cries... Hell I even miss the backstabbing... At least there was some form of communication between friends.....
And now my 20th birthday has arrived.
When I was little, I never thought I would live to see 20. It seemed so far away. It was like, the end of the road. You're an adult now... No more farting around and being immature.
and now that I am here... I'm scared...
Where did my youth go? Why does it feel like I have just died? I am so scared to become an adult that it paralyzes me. I am scared to move out. I am scared to pay my own bills. I am scared to grow up. I am so SICK of being scared.
I dont know what to do... I feel lost... I feel hopeless...
I want my mommy.......
chole-black at 9:19 pm